feels absolutely great to be able to bounce back from last year. 2008 has been a learning experience for me, as with all the past years that have come and gone. i felt like i've amassed a decade's worth of life's lessons from last year. for me 2008 will always be two things: the first and second half. and just as i've always said, i would never change anything and everything that took place the past twelve months. there are no regrets, only bits and pieces that i've learned from my mistakes.
and as much as i'd like to make my own personal to-do lists, i disdain making new year's resolutions. i try to steer clear from those as much as possible, because i believe that my goal every year is to make myself a better person. this year, work and family will be my main focus, as i feel that i'm already past the stage where my friends are my priorities. i'm a year older now (and hopefully, more mature) and my friends are always going to be there no matter what. they've been my family for the last five years and last year, everyone had to tend to their own. this year will not be any different.
needless to say, i think it's also time to start thinking for myself. indulge a bit here, but i also need to buy myself stuff more. i was too preoccupied with everyone around me (friends, personal relationships, etc.) virtually since 2005. it's high time i act a little selfishly.
my romantic status will be something i'll have to see in time. if things develop as it should, then good for me. it's not something i want to dwell on too much. i plan to just sit back and enjoy it as much as i can while it's there. don't get me wrong, i have genuine feelings for zel. she is such a mystery to me. it's almost as if there's something else behind those lovely eyes, fragrant hair, petite frame. i can go on rambling about her. i could melt every time she puts on that smile. i am just smitten. i don't even know what to do or say when i'm around this woman. i get all weird and silly but in some strange way, i kind of like it. having that giddy feeling all over. every day it just gets stronger and stronger. ah.